indecision

Friday, August 28, 2015

fall down into happiness

whoops there i go,
dropping myself into a hollow
letting my knees go weak, slipping beneath the clouds
leaving space for freedom to abound


when we open we unfurl
allowing an existence to seem near,
one that
perhaps

is not real.

i often wonder if i were to be strong enough to let go
to be what one knows they have learned
escaped of conformity
free to live with the unknown

afriad and enlightened

i wonder if i could be
and would i

Saturday, August 15, 2015

whole again

feeling strong emotions, unable to discern

from the pain of need, want, desire
to the longing for lust, greed and hope

awash with self i have been but unable to contain
my empty thoughts
my pain

self involved so deep within my mind
left to believe that i am mine

falsifying my own existence to pray for a stronger day
unable to see, to realise that the shame shows me the way

beyond minutes and hours, those periods that make me feel so weak
at he knees, lost again, helplessly
caught up with blinkers on

i should feel ashamed.

when i understand after time passed, i do but open up once more
forgiving others
forgiving hate
releasing myself

i can be in control but i digress

i smile
i feign

until i can be

Friday, April 3, 2015

i don't eat lamb

sitting aloft
gorging on but feed
fat with content

facts only false
life a wasted speck

in space and time most immeasurable
i sit silently

enjoying my mind, too much
traveling from past through future 
at each point trying to let go some more

to not want
desire
feel

tripping along the journey
happy and free

i am me

and?

Monday, January 26, 2015

how do I put them out?

Darkened through shadows thought
A life in a time not felt honest
I become confused
Unable to see myself
My heart
Belief

Simple time in now shows me full

Of life

Of time

Of happiness

The sounds of life resound around me

Saturday, December 6, 2014

to the stars

i'm not lost only looking
saddened by this world, human existence, that we live within

now feeling a small path will make a big difference
wanting our need for a symbiotic relationship to be forthgiving

seeing shapes given over to each material being

i feel forgiven

pleaded upon though to make a change
never feared of, for time will eliminate

our hope will only stretch us so far

without realisation we will be lost

Sunday, November 23, 2014

feeling

to realise that letting go is simply being within moments
this second and beyond. a moment is so deep

held for eternity
awoken to happiness

open to the all

truly alive
honest
strong

encapsulated by the breath, the senses

not wanting
of past or future

to only be

Saturday, November 1, 2014

i am

stopped  for a moment
feeling life now
no thought
no mind
all emotions emptied
lost
a wholesome freedom from the electric noise
going on without knowing

elapsed
separated
full

the desire to be
sharing drawn

hopping gayly

ever the fool